I have a sign <when I saw it I had to get it> outside the front door that reads:
I can only please one person per day and today is not your day. Tomorrow doesn’t look good either.
Currently, I’m finding it extremely difficult to please me. Maybe it’s because I’m not sure what me wants now…
I feel as if the life is being sucked out of me probably by me as everyone else seems seemingly happy and care-free. It feels as if everyone is out to get me. Bombard me with their opinions/choices.
When faced with confrontation – I run! No wait, I don’t face confrontation. I go into a paralytic state. I kid you not. I’m good with work and all but matters of the heart is another story. I can’t face anyone who’s emotionally involved with me. I work myself into a frenzy and really want the earth to swallow me temporarily and spit me back up when the confrontations are over.
Why? I don’t know. I’ve lived like this forever.
P.S. And then I married a man who faces confrontation before it even surfaces…